Darkness is Light with
Love of Thee
The narrative of John’s
account of the man born blind presented in the Gospel of the Fourth Sunday of
Lent flows towards a dialogue between Jesus and the healed man. The importance
of this dialogue consists in being a model of conversion, which entails
personal encounter with Christ, confession of faith in him and comes to the
climactic point of surrendering oneself in the act of worshipping him (cf. Jn
9:35-38). Worship pertains to the core of what is at issue in this incident
recounted (as in others in the gospels), namely, the Pharisees severe critical
rejection of Jesus for breaking the Law of the Sabbath, which forbad doing work
on that day of rest in order to be dedicated to the worship God. Jesus’ act of compassionate
healing, thus, showed the purpose of worship
being intrinsically related to fostering human worth; it also showed up the Pharisees’ attitude of spiritual
blindness in preferring a rigidly narrow interpretation regarding what they
considered worship to be.
In
commenting on this passage of John’s Gospel, Jean Vanier says: “The authorities
are imprisoned in (confined by) an ideology – an intellectual theory cut off
from reality and experience… We refuse to accept others because we are closed
up in our own ideas and certitudes. Jesus came to liberate us from ideology.” (The Gospel of John, The Gospel of Relationship,
p.56.)
Furthermore,
this attitude of spiritual blindness indicated exactly the opposite of Jesus’
intention of expressing God’s loving goodness. It missed the point of this
entirely through presuming to pre-judge his intention by failing in an all too
limited human way to perceive beyond or into the external action’s
significance. The crucial importance of this finds expression also in the first
scripture reading of this Sunday, which states that whereas human beings judge
by mere superficial appearances, God sees the heart. The secret of discovering
the deep joy of living requires learning to read God’s loving design of
goodness etched into the whole of creation. This learning demands a
contemplative serenity, or as William Wordsworth puts it:
While with an eye made quiet by the power
Of harmony, and the deep power of joy,
We see into the life of things. (Tintern Abbey)
This
learning to see properly and truly implies a process of patient discernment of
the good that can come even – and at times especially – in the midst of
adversity and suffering. John Milton discovered the useful service he could
offer through experiencing his ordeal of blindness. He expressed this in the
famous line at the end of a sonnet:
They also serve who
only stand and wait.
Waiting
can seem like an interminable dark night of knowing that we don’t know. But, as
Blessed John Henry Newman put it, “Darkness is light with love of Thee.”
By learning to wait in love our sense perceptions and our motives become
purified. We have to turn to Christ, “the Light of the world’ (Jn 9:5), who, as
depicted in the lovely painting below, stands at the door waiting for us to
open the door to him, since the latch is on the inside. He’ll then illumines
the inner eye of our hearts enabling us to perceive God’s design of goodness at
work in others and throughout creation. To realise this we have to go by the
way of living through life’s tortuous paradoxes. T.S. Eliot put it this way:
be
still, and wait without hope
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love,
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:
So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing. (East Coker)
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love,
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:
So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing. (East Coker)
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to
face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been
fully understood. So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of
these is love. (1 Cor 13:12f.)
Our whole life becomes
transformed in the light of worship, as the blind beggar’s life was in his encounter
with Jesus, as seen above, that wonderful encounter through which he discovered
he was loved by him who looked with compassion on his condition.
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William Holman Hunt, The Light of the world - St Paul's
Cathedral London.